A Prayer Warrior

My name is Christella Ilunga and I am a Congolese woman living in the United States. I am twenty three, just graduated college, and I am in a transitional period of my life. In the past during transitional periods of my life I was anxious, worrisome, and would end up in seasons of severe depression.

My issue was that I believed that I had lived the best in my past and change would mean leaving the best times and people behind. I was too comfortable with who I was and where I was each time. Although it takes me time to get comfortable with change, once I am comfortable it is hard to get out of my comfort zone.

My relationship with God has always been sort of on and off. He has always been faithful to me even when I was not faithful to Him. He has always loved me even when I was questioning Him. I was an unstable believer. Sometimes I would be firm and strong in my faith. Other times I would be in complete doubt. Along the way I learned that if I wanted to serve God and truly serve Him, I would first have to trust Him. Not just sometimes, but all of the time. Trust for me has never been easy. My life experiences have destroyed my sense of trust. But with out that trust I could not truly be intimate with the Lord.

So I decided that I was going to become a prayer warrior. A true woman of prayer. Praying for the Lord to heal my wounds and renew me so that I may learn to trust Him through everything. I can honestly say this was the best decision of my life. It has put me in a position to truly receive God’s love and favor in my life.

Believing in God is one thing, trusting Him is another. Believing is acknowledging the truth that He is who He says He is. Trusting is believing that He will do exactly what He says He will do.

“Be still and know (recognize, understand) that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations! I will be exalted in the earth.””

PSALM 46:10

I know that many other people in the world struggle with trust due to betrayal or hurt in their past. I prayed that God would use me to help those people in particular place in their lives. Not just because I have been there but because it is what kept me from having a true intimate relationship with God. Knowing that if they could be healed from their past wounds that they would be able to move forward in grace.

God can do all things, yes. When it comes to God working in our lives, He will only do what we believe in our hearts He can do. Our faith is our fuel. What you believe He will do, He will do. My prayer is that more people have freedom from the personal things that keep them from getting closer to God. That we all learn to trust God more than we trust our past experiences and our lingering past emotions to lead us. I pray that the world will be still and know that He is God.